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03 luglio CAN'T WAIT...My peter pan called me up and unlike his usual goodnight calls, he goes...i can't wait for us to get married...
that just brought a big smile across my face at the other end of the line...i can't wait too, hon... goodnight... ON LOVE AND STRENGTHi learned to suck in all my doubts, fears and failures because I love...
It is love that gives me enough strength and courage to get past my weakness and improve myself. It is love that makes me endure and give me patience to understand. It is love that makes me hope that someday I am able to make others happy.
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I realized that my pessimism keeps others from seeing my real strength which is my ability to rise after a failure and to continue to go on and find ways to make do of the present situation.
I may shed tons of tears from failures and fears but I believe God has granted me with the gift of letting me feel the pain enough to see and reflect upon myself. He does not let the pain stay in my heart for a long time. He reminds me of my purpose. He gave me the power to trust His plans which is enough to take away my pain. 15 giugno THINGS TO LIVE BYBE HUMBLE...STAY SIMPLE...hope i'd be able to teach my future kids to learn these by heart...  04 giugno BRIDAL FAIRA good day for a our first bridal fair event... chocolate fondues will surely be a part of the wedding reception...  23 maggio THE OMEN CAME WHEN THE TIMING WAS RIGHT...5/19/06 STAGES OF ADJUSTMENT ALL W/IN 24 HOUR PERIOD
DENIAL - dazed...stunned...no it couldn't be...after slaving it out for several months...
ANGER - now what am i to do now...probably just a few seconds overlapping with the neXt stage...
BARGAINING - God can't you change it?...i'll be good...i promise...
DEPRESSION - where most of the 24 hours was spent...sighing...sleeping...numbed...just couldn't get out of bed...
ACCEPTANCE - God has a plan...He always had one for me...i'll be patient...i'll wait...
5/23/06 THE ALCHEMIST ENCOUNTER (THE ALCHEMIST BY PAOLO COELHO)
Now, i know why a lot of people loved this book. I'm probably one of the last few who just happened to read it recently. Good timing. Just when I needed to find hope. I'm putting some words and phrases that got me through a difficult month. i want to remember and believe in it always without any inch of doubt...
DREAMS, OMENS and where does God lead me? I've got to waken up my senses so i wouldn't miss a thing. Inspite of the failures, I know where He leads me. In my heart, i know...
WHEN YOU WANT SOMETHING ALL THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRES IN HELPING YOU ACHIEVE IT...everything including the disappointments...the part where enough happiness is given to encourage you to go on... the part that tests your spirit...the way that molds you to realize your personal legend...this book was an omen. it came just when i needed it most.
PERSONAL LEGEND...that was a nice way to put it...one that makes a person unique...the path we are made to discover...only those who become friends with their doubting hearts can realize this...I'm still arguing with mine. One day my heart will give in and i can trust it...
MY PURPOSE...shouldn't be any different than yours...there's only ONE purpose for each of us.
...i know my purpose...i have yet to experience my personal legend...
11 maggio ISLANDGAL FALLS FOR PETER PAN...Due to a personal request, my boyfwend suddenly shows interest about how i categorize my entries and kept on insisting for me to cook up a category of his own...though he still doesn't have any idea where i write my blog, he makes a suggestion of using Peter Pan as his "screen name" so to speak...being his cute and jolly self again, i indulge to his request and hereby refer my wuvie
 as Peter Pan in the subsequent entries...(what the heck! he's slowly emerging from his stressful state that i am sort of giving him this new identity to celebrate his return to sanity!) REJOICE!!!!! WELCOME BACK MY PETER PAN... I MISSED YOU...
 WARDEN ALERTi've died over a thousand deaths each time my dad stabbed me with his dagger looks and tore me apart with his menacing remarks...but I’m still breathing...the physical part of me is still alive but i have yet to see where he buried my spirit...and each time my spirit gains enough strength to come back and look for me, there he goes again wanting to take away my only hope for a happy and peaceful life...he knows not of the life i am talking about...the only love he can speak and know of is the selfish and uncompromising kind of a seemingly disappointed father...his love is clouded by his own guilt…guilt has forced him to think i will be paying for the wrong he may have done in his past...but isn't the burden of cutting off my freedom the same as the pain i will go through if indeed i paid for his wrongdoings?...please do not let me carry the load you brought upon yourself …is it not that the pain he is protecting me from is the same pain he is trying to inflict on me himself when he talks to me with a cold heart and an unaccommodating mind...heart and mind both unaccustomed to openness and understanding...for others, he will try...for me, i know he doesn't want to...
10 maggio THE OTHER SIDE OF ME...from the only blog i get to read regularly...link up to cara...
08 maggio IRONIESLOVE AND HATE...what else is new...ironic as it may seem, both go hand in hand...Lord, give me patience...
 i miss the days when i was led to thinking i was a better option than pieces of metal and plastic put together...
 BLAH..........
?????????????????where can i buy patience?..........anyone?.........
 order me one please.........the cheap kind.........not enough money to buy stuff...  03 maggio SURPRISE PHONE CALL... .....hmmmm....happy days.....at last.....i've been waiting for something to make me really happy lately....lo and behold....a surprise call......at the other end of the line is my man's little ballerina...she calls me to say hi and if i'd like to come and see her while her dad is off to work that day...
...imagine how big my smile was when i heard her wanting me to be with her...i'm soooooooooooooo haaaaaapy.......(yup! that's including all the o's and a's and dots you see!hahahaha!)....but since she heard that her dad was on his way home already, she plans something else and asks if we could go to the mall the next day...i wasn't sure if there would be a car available so i told her i'll ask her dad and she says it's alright even if we had to take a cab...hahaha...couldn't believe my ears...she really trusts me and wants to go out with me!...what a day!....but being that cute ballerina that she is, she suddenly plans something else to do with her friends and i was happy for her that she got to invite her friends over to her dad's place...never mind that our original plan to spend the day together won't exactly happen...kids are kids...fickle at some point....hehehehe.....we're gonna be spending time together on thursday anyway...
 after 6 years of being her dad's girlfriend, our bond starts to raise up a notch as she grows a little older....happiness....
...it doesn't stop there...as soon as her dad arrives (i was on the phone with her dad), i hear her ask him if i was the one at the other end of the line...then she goes, "we love you!"
 .................WOW.................i couldn't believe my ears......that was so unexpected.....i even had to ask her dad several times if that was really intended for me!!!!! He said yes...and i go jumping here inside my house with happiness and hope that somehow the little ballerina does care for me after all these years...Up to now, i can still hear her voice in my head...i'd have to ask my boyfriend again tomorrow if that was really for real and i wasn't assuming things or hearing things...thank you God for making my day.... |
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